There is something about being alone. It makes you think. It makes you realize the holes. The places where things seem to be missing. I don't want to be the one who blogs about what's missing in her life. Obviously, I want to bring a moment of joy. A time to uplift you and bring you back to the important things in life. I also want to be real and raw and transparent about what my life is right now. Some days it's really hard coming home to an empty apartment. Some days it's really hard to look at myself in the mirror. Some days it's really hard just to keep going through my day. I can't quite explain the feelings I have sometimes. Most of the time I describe it as being overwhelmed.
All I want is to feel at peace and at ease again. I have to remember that the Lord is present no matter what I am feeling. I know that my Savior is holding me at times that I don't always feel it. I know that my family and others in my life genuinely care. I know that without God I wouldn't have gotten through this. I wouldn't have gotten through all of the trials of this life. I hope that whatever it is you are going through, you know you are not alone. There are people in this blogging community that genuinely care as well. It doesn't matter if you are ashamed of your past, or if you are just going through a tough time. I pray for all of those that I know and don't know that may be going through what I am. I pray for those who are brave and strong enough to start over. I pray for those who have been kicked and bumped and bruised in life.
I have to say, it does get better. My good days certainly outweigh the bad. I pray that Christ holds you, comforts you, and brings you through the times of loneliness.
If you ever need to chat, connect with me on my contact page. I'd be happy to help you in any way I can.